Saturday, February 10, 2007

Closer to Fine

I’m trying to tell you something about my life
Maybe give me insight between black and white
And the best thing you’ve ever done for me
Is to help me take my life less seriously
Its only life after all...

-- Indigo Girls, "Closer to Fine"

I can’t really say more than that. That’s what I’ve gotten – tons of insight, advice, ways to take life less seriously. I’ve made some great friends – people I may or may not ever see, but people who I’ve gotten to know through words and things we’ve all published. Similar experiences that bonded us and showed me that I wasn’t alone in some of the stuff I was going through.

I’ll miss being here – laughing at things that could only happen to Marissa; finding out that if everyone has a clone in the world, mine is probably Cheryl; marveling at Dasi’s adventures from a previous life; Jill’s decidedly Jill-esque take on all things; Kris’s undeniable humor and spirit and a love for her cats that I as a fellow cat person can totally understand; Amanda’s openness and deep caring for people; the incredibly odd and yet laugh out loud HI-larity of Brad and Paul; the fuck you attitude and totally kind heart of Jenn; the mother of all great moms, Miladysa; and of course, the escapades of my girls, Kendra, Beth and Becki. Although that last one I still get to see, since we’ve been friends for 8 million years already. Anyway.

I’ve had some real life adventures with some of you – from beers in Breck with Eddie last spring and all the book recommendations that we’ve shared as fellow word nerds; to lunches with Tim and countless hours of wandering through the mall talking about nothing and everything.

So after a little over two years of sharing (and probably oversharing), it’s time to let go. I’ve gone from a job I hate and more time on my hands than I knew what to do with to a job I love and working 14 hour days and lots of weekends. I’ve gone from dating losers and weirdos and Not Boyfriend to dating Chris, who is pretty much the best I could ask for. I’ve gone through happy and sad and really up and despairingly down and through it all, I’ve had this as an outlet.

I might be back, I might not. I might be around the blogiverse, I might not. You guys know how to find me if you want to – so if you want to, well, I hope you do.

In the meantime, thanks for everything, and most of all, thanks for being with me. Thanks for bringing me closer to fine.

Much love,


Woodrow said...

Aw hell. Aahhhhwwwwww HELL!

Paul said...

We will miss you. Desperately.

Mr. Fabulous said...

Well, I'm gonna stay in touch with you. You'll not get rid of me that easily! LOL

I am supremely glad things are working out so well for you. I can hardly think of anyone who deserves it more!

Hope said...

Aw Amber, I'll miss reading here, but I obviously understand the need to end it. I happy that you're happy!

Kendra said...

Man, you are so lucky you live 2 minutes away and that I can see you whenever I want or we would be having words about this decision!

Also, I want to hear all about the trip to the 'ha so come over for dinner soon...there will be wine!


-J said...

This is such shitty news. (Incidentally, "fine" is fucked up, insecure, neurotic and emotional" and I'd hate to think we brought you closer to that.)

This is really shitty news.

Best with everything.

Janet said...


//hours of weeping

Well, at least spend some time visiting Florance or something with all that extra time.

looks for tissues

Chris said...

So this means you will have to send emails to keep us posted on your life events. Some of us are more than two minutes...or hours away. We expect you to keep in touch and not fall off the earth into just one life in Denver.


Marissa said...

Amber! I am actually in tears. I really am! You have absolutely no idea how much your posts have touched me; made me laugh; helped me; made me feel less alone. You are an incredible person and I can't believe we've never even met face-to-face. I hope someday that changes. And, selfishly, because I"ll miss reading you so much, I hope you'll be back. I will definitely be in touch with you.
All my love,

Cheryl said...

Aw. my fellow word-nerd clone, I shall miss your blog. But not you, because I know how to find you. I've enjoyed reading you and getting to know you. And rest assured, you've done a lot for the rest of us too.

Antonio said...

I've enjoyed your blog quite a bit and I'm sad to see another honest, open person leave the blogiverse. Glad to hear you've found someone great. Good luck in the future!

Edge said...

That really makes me sad. Now the trifecta is gone of you, Alice and Hope.

Sad day.


Leesa said...

Wow, I don't read your site as often as I would like, but I was sad to hear that you are quitting blogging. Good luck, dear! And I completely understand the need to quit. Healthy, it is.


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Jill said...

What a lovely farewell, Amber. It has been wonderful being a part of your life, and I hope that we can keep in touch... are you not on gmail??? KC knows how to find me! You should, too!!! So happy your life is going well. Hugs and kisses from New York!


Timmortal said...

Hey!! Miss ya girl...hit me up sometime!

Kellie said...

Yeah, I understand. I have been back and forth on the whole blog thing... Good luck, lady! :)

Edge said...

I miss your blog. I would like to know what's going on.