Thursday, February 23, 2006

Blankety blank blank

I've started about 85 posts and I get about halfway through and I'm like "Ugh. That is so not good. Not good at all." Or else "Gah. Totally looks like you're trying too hard."

The thing about it is, I haven't done anything noteworthy of late. In fact, if we're getting right down to it, I haven't done much of anything period. Due to circumstances beyond my control, there have been a series of, well, issues -- for lack of a better word.

Like that. Right there. I can't remember ever being at a loss for words. Oh sure, maybe if I were shocked about something, I'd get all speechless, but not in everyday conversation. But now? There have been times when my mind literally goes blank -- and the more I try to come up with something to say, the worse it gets. Since I hate my job and everyone knows it, people often ask me "what do you want to do?" And EVERY TIME I go completely blank. My brain is like "does not...compute" and it shuts down while I try to at least come up with something more word-like than "Mmmmm...uhhhhh." I'll tell you what, in the event I get a job interview, I seriously doubt they'll be falling all over themselves to hire me after I wow them with "Mmmmm...uhhhhh."

I've also ceased to care about things that would have previously bothered me to the point of ridiculousness. My new favorite and most used word? Meh. Because "whatever" has three syllables, and frankly, just takes too long to say.

My phone conversations have suffered because not only do I not have anything to say, really, but I also can't muster up the mental energy to try and think of words to put on the blank canvas of my mind. And of course, the blog has suffered because really, when you have nothing to say, it never shows through more than when you write it down.

So. Now that I've explained in 500 words or less why my posts lately have been lame as hell, well, I leave you with these sage words of advice. Mmmmm...uhhhhh. I'm so wise.

23 comments:

Kyahgirl said...

mmmmm-uhhhhh mfffgmggfff.

Nicole said...

For not having anything to say, you came up with a rather long post. ;-)

I hate my job, too. And I'm convinced that it is sucking the life and creativity out of me. Mmmmm...uhhhhh, indeed.

Cheryl said...

Meh.

Cheryl said...

I am of course kidding. I care about what you ave to say...even if it's just Mmmmmm...Uhhhhh

Alice said...

hee, i love the word "meh." i use it all the team even if i DO have the energy to use higher-syllable words. it's just so expressive in it's simplicity, you know? :-)

but i am also convinced that while i was once eloquent and verbose, my job has sucked all the intelligence and big words right outta my skull. mmrrrfffggg right back atcha.

Edge said...

Didn't sound so bad to me. So how's boxing?

~Jef

Sandra Dee said...

I do that TOO!

lil'bitty said...

what was the most horribly embarassing moment that you ever had on a date. There you go, can't draw blank on those things that are indellibly inscribed into your mind. I'm here to help, plus get some laughs. Meh, or you could just mock someone on your blog.

Kristen said...

Whatever

Sass said...

whatever I heard you had a lamp shade on your head last night.

Do tell.

mmmmm...uhgggg

Kellie said...

Hey girl, I think we all have felt this way at one point or another. Sometimes, I just want someone to say "tell me how your feel about blah blah blah"

it's so much easier than thinking.

Sheesh.

:)

I need some good reality tv to veg to! ;)

villanovababy said...

God! I'm so glad I'm not the only one that feels like this... ;)

Jill said...

I'm feeling kinda "meh" myself. Though not about you, Amber.

Okie said...

You should do like me and just post that shit anyway. F it. You're the blogator.

Marissa said...

happens to me ALL the damn time. for what it's worth, even when you have nothing to say, you entertain me! :) if you write it, i will read it!

Marie said...

Meh is a perfectly good word and most appropriate in lieu of "whatever." :) Your posts are still funny as hell even when you don't try. ;) I'm just now catching up on my blog reading. I hope you're having a good weekend!

Mr. Fabulous said...

Meh..I like it. I am going to use it. I think the time I save from saying "whatever" I can use to picture my most attractive co-workers naked.

Good times.

The Husband said...

i think you are a wonderful writer and blogger.

Romeo Jensen said...

damn that nicole is hawt (2nd comment) now where was I... oh yeah... the next posting from you should start out something like...

"okay you remember me telling you about the boy I kissed the other day? Well the wedding will be in..."

Timmortal said...

Well, it's like I read on another dudes blog once. When you really dont have anything to say or to write about...don't. It's supposed to be fun, not a job Amber. Guess who's coming to town for a little get together and eat fest? I'll give you a hint...his name rhymes with Limb.

Amanda said...

hi amber...i know exactly where you are coming from. i have been feeling like, "something's missing" as of late. i can't pinpoint it. and i just want to scream. or go "Mmmmm...uhhhh."

Hope said...

How do you manage to make an interesting post out of nothing? Somehow you did it.

I know exactly how you feel about your mind going blank when people ask you what you want to do. People keep telling me to quit my job, but how can I quit if my mind goes completely blank when asked what I want to do with me life? I have to know what I went to do next before I quit what I'm doing now!

Leesa said...

sweetie, I am in the same place. Really in the same place. And I have been less enthusiastic about reading other people's blogs as well.